Don't let your light be dimmed

Yesterday was a day of attack it felt like. As I was trying to decided what to journal and write about this week it seemed like I was getting hit with discouragement. The first thing I saw was a triggering memory on Facebook from the year I found out about Terry's affairs but the thing that maybe shook me the most was a random reel I seen on Facebook of a couple that was sharing, in a fun song and dance way, their testimony of overcoming infidelity with God's help. The content in the video said "A marriage could never survive after infidelity, but by the grace of God ours did, DON'T listen to society". Why I clicked to read the comments is beyond me but I did it and seen some of the most awful comments.

For the sake of not paraphrasing, I am actually going to put some of the comments that struck a nerve with me here:

"Nah it can't. Keep telling yourself it can. Eventually that little gnawing at the back of your mind will eat you alive. Just a matter of time. Once that bond of trust is broken. It's broken. End of story."

"Look, y'all be telling social media tooooo much. That could have stayed between y'all and God, no matter who cheated. Smh"

"She found a weak dude, I'm sorry that guy needs have some self respect"

"Yeah it can survive but it's never the same and won't thrive"

I share these comments to give context to what Satan was trying to do in that moment. First he was trying to put my husbands mistakes right in front of my face with the FB memory and this reel but even more than that he was trying to speak the lie that sharing about our story wouldn't do anything but bring ridicule and rude comments my way.

Here is one thing that I know to be true: Matthew 5:14-16 MSG says "Here's another way to put it: You're here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We're going public with this, as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light-bearers, you don't think I'm going to hide you under a bucket, do you? I'm putting you on a light stand. Now that I've put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand - Shine! Keep open house; be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, you'll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in Heaven"

God has called me to use the pain and experience of the infidelity that happened in my marriage to bring hope to others in a similar situation. Through the pain, I have experienced depression and anxiety which adds another level to my testimony to be able to share what God has done and is still doing in my life. He has made me a light bearer for the sole purpose of making others light bearers as well so that we can shine His light far and wide so that all may come to know Him. So while yeah it may eventually lead to ridicule and rude comments from hurting people (because I believe all of these comments came from a place of hurt) that's okay, God will be there to comfort me if that ever happens because I know I am doing what he has called me to do.

I may be sharing soon a more detailed version of our testimony. If this is something you'd like to read please leave a comment or send me a message and let me know.

If you would like to see how I created my Bible page you can check out the process video here: https://youtu.be/1snETjDGL5E