Be Content

I've been struggling lately with trusting God and seeing His plan. Trying to find a job here has been far more difficult than I imagined. I've applied for dozens of jobs and have only had 2 interviews. This is causing a significant strain on our finances which has led me to feel very confused. I've had many questions, like "Did we do the right thing?" "Did we hear Him wrong?" "God, what are you doing?" "Am I doing something wrong?" "Am I not good enough?", ALL the questions. It's been emotionally exhausting. I know that money is not everything but we have gone from living comfortably to struggling and it's hard to understand what exactly God is doing.

When I was looking for a verse to journal this morning I came across Hebrews 13:5, which says "Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."" While I have never felt like I have had a "love of money" I do feel like my entire adult life has been consumed with it, Do we have enough? Do we need more? Can we pay our bills? Can we take a vacation? We need to save more. We need to make more. The list just goes on, so here I am completely discontent with where we are financially and God puts this verse in front of me. So maybe this season is a season of learning to be content with the little and being thankful for what we do have, we have vehicles that are working, we have a roof over our heads, food in our bellies...and our pantry....and our fridge, we have a ton of love and even more so we have a heavenly father who loves us and sees everything we cannot see and he has GOOD plans for us and not a single one of his plans are meant to harm us! It's hard to remember this on the bad days so on the good days I want to be sure to give myself these reminders to look back on.